Greetings, Glory to Jesus Christ!
I am amazed at how the days on the calendar change and I, on the other hand, have not. It has been my intention to resume in providing some written offering “eventually,” and have satisfied myself quite well with the intent that feigns at willingness but excuses itself for many reasons–they’re always very good ones…or at least acceptable…or reasonable…or temporary. I have a sense of the fire, shut up in my bones, as described by my patron (Jer. 20:9)–I think that we all have it–but I also see that it can be protected, hidden, stoked, ignored, quenched.
While much time is spent working, being with my family, and serving as a “Reader” (chanter, at St. Paul Orthodox Church); it is clear that more opportunity is postponed, a dilatory strategy that aims at “eventually” getting to what is important while agreeing to do what is urgent and far more temporal than the work that I ultimately set out to do. Then I dwell in the temporal and am made ill by awareness of my own inertia–when does “potential energy” lose its potential?
I have been involved in a small poetry collaboration with a very gifted friend over the past couple of months (so there is a little work being done)–which we may share some of in the days to come, but may also eventually aim to publish. And I, again, express my intention to put my “mind where my mouth is” and provide some offering even if it be brief and a little less infrequent than my previous (some separated by nearly a year’s time).
For the few (one?) who visit this site still–and understand my struggle–please know that you are loved. I hope to have something to offer very soon.
